“Days filled with panic attacks, getting physically sick from the anxiety that was rushing through my body and both were extremely exhausting. Sometimes a hint of light but then a deep low. Being afraid of getting a panic attack, experiencing the anxiety for it, having the panic attack, getting sick from the panic attack and repeat. Day in, day out. Week in, week out. Month in, month out. Year in, year out. A toxic spiral, a toxic pattern and a self destructing method. It was exhausting. But I broke it. I broke the spiral, I broke the pattern and I found it strange to experience days of me feeling good. I had to get used to it and I sometimes still do. I love the moment of awareness when I slip out of alignment, how quick I notice it and how much I dislike the sensations because me feeling good is such an incredible feeling. I love it.”
– Poppy Koning
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- Name: Exhausted
- Collection: I was at war with myself
- Dimensions: 50 cm x 50 cm x 3,5 cm
- Material: acrylics on canvas
– minimalistic painting